Hup means hello and sup. Sup means 'What's up?'. Please, no one say the sky or ceiling or whatever that is physically above you right this very moment unless you have a poo on your head in which case I would be very happy for you. This is Step, I want to make more friends :)

I am kingbecauseyou guys said soand you know how you are.

i think it might be a record, this giant gap of no posts!
well firstly, I'M SEVENTEEN! AS OF A WEEK AND A HALF AGO! but it's still real weird when i think I'M SEVENTEEN! cos i don't feel that much different and now ERIN IS TURNING EIGHTEEN. my excitement over my own birthday is always overshadowed by how old i think she is :P
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH DW ERIN, ONLY 18 IT'S JUST THE START OF YOUR DETERIORATION!
nahh, you'll have a great 18th. :) idk what to get you but i'll think of something valuabe and memorable.
i could complain more about my english teachers.
stupid, so much for 3 day turn-over. i think he forgot about me :'( oh its reason to cry for.
and now i'm literally drowning neck deep in work. i can't get on top of it like i can't' get on top of a swimming pool that has high walls cos i have weak arm/ab muscles.
WHICH SUCKS.

and talking abotu vball makes me angry!
WHY WHY WHY MY PERFORMANCE IS SO BAD. I PLAYED 6 YEARS WITH TRAINIGN NEARLY EVERY WEEK AND I HIT LIKE A KITTEN. WORSE. I HIT LIKE A KITTEN THAT CAN'T HOLD IN ITS PEE. IT JUST AR;LKJAD;LKFJAE;RLKJA
THE BALL JUST DRIBBLES OVER AND IT MAKES ME SO MAD
I FEEL SO MAD
AND IT'S BEEN 2 WEEKS. nearly. SO SO MAD. i have shamed everyone
the team
myself
and Mr Drew.
i think i will apologize to him later for playing like he never taught me anything. i have also embarrassed myself in front of the year 10's 11's and 12.s they probably think that i'm only on the team out of pity and sympathy and GOD. EVEN FOR A BAD DAY OF VBALL, THIS IS THE WORST. I DONT' EVEN KNOW WHY, IT'S LIKE I COMPELTELY JUST ZONED OUT.
maggie was right, i just had to snap back in
BUT WHY DO I ALWAYAS LACKTHE COURAGE TO JUST HIT IT LIKE I DO IN TRAINING. I ALWAYS GO THE STUPID 40% AND AS A RESULT, EVEN LOLLIPOPS AREN'T EFFICIENT ADJECTIVES TO DESCRIBE HOW BAD IT WAS.
AND THE SERVING.
ARGH.
I DONT' EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.
WHY DOES IT FRUSTRATE ME SO MUCH. I'M SO SORRY MR DREW, I COST YOU THE GOLD. THAT LOVELY GOLD THAT I COST YOU LAST YEAR AFTER 8 YEARS OF GOLDS. I'M AM ABSLUTE FAILURE IN BAULKO VBALL HISTORY AND I HATE IT.
I'M SORRY BAULKO.

i'm still very angry but i've now unlocked my caps lock. :( good thing nobody will read this cos they think i never post anymore. i'm sick of writing essays but at least my history and memory essay is finished meaning, I'LL NEVER HAVE TO WRITE A 'NEW' ESSAY AGAIN! YES YES YES YES YES!
that is somethign to celebrate for.
and now, to slink back into the corners of my warm bed and to sulk about how much i hate myself for failing in vball. i'm so ashamed.

Cheers, Steph :( back to top?